Anger and New Year's Resolutions

So I'm having a hard morning today. The Little One was up a lot last night, crawling over my head and crying and not going to sleep and pulling the blankets off of me and freezing me out. Now, I am sleep deprived and upset. Also, our car is being retarded so we'll probably have to get stuff fixed on it, which totally blows my whole plan to have more in savings before the end of January. So why such a negative beginning for what is usually a positive subject? Because it shows where I am honestly.

I'm all ticked off, but I'm at home with my family and My Husband is taking care of The Little One so I don't have to. I'm upset about the car but every time something like this happens God has always come through for us in unexpected ways. Maybe I won't make my goal by the end of January but maybe something else good will happen. Still though, I'm grouchy and I don't want to be.



My whole life I've had this thing with losing my temper. Getting so upset and angry and saying mean things and wanting to break stuff. Recently, I've had real success with getting that all in check and learning to prevent anger before it comes and addressing my emotions before they control me. But it can be so frustrating when it seems like I get upset over such little things. Like right now, so I didn't sleep really well, but my husband is taking care of the baby so what's the big fuss? I need to change my attitude, but that really can be hard.

So for my New Year's Resolution I'm starting a bit above rock bottom--and I'm starting now. When I walk away from this post I am determined to be happy again.

My goals:

Recognize my emotions and be their master. http://www.lds.org/general-conference/2007/10/slow-to-anger?lang=eng
http://www.lds.org/general-conference/2009/10/school-thy-feelings-o-my-brother?lang=eng

Practice my flute for half an hour every day so I can share my talent with others and have joy in my accomplishments. (In other words, permission to brag heartily).

Save $200 a month in a separate savings account. By December 2013 have an emergency fund well started. http://www.providentliving.org/?lang=eng